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KissKnees bend, hands shake,
Lips part, hearts break,
Blood pumps, thoughts fly,
Bodies melt, worries die,
Heads swim, fingers touch,
Tongues rub, clothes bunch.

Butterflies, adrenaline,
Testosterone and estrogen,
We fit like a glove, so...
Kiss me again, love?

April 24I've got hooks in my back
And screws in my spine
With rods up and down
Just to keep myself aligned

The scar on my back
Goes on for miles
It won't disappear
It's the proof of my trials

No matter how far I run
Or where I try to hide
Therein lies a truth
That I could never deny

April twenty-fourth
Is the perpetual date
And I cannot escape
This indefinite fate

Self-DestructionI hate you so much
yet
I love you to death.

I want to be [as far away from you as possible,]
but I know I could -never live without you.-

I'm the only one who can truly
see through your mask and
I wish you would let others see,
but I know exactly why you don't want to.
And as crazy as it sounds,
I understand your masochistic ways.
When you have pain in your life,
you want it to {go away,}
but when it's not there,
you feel ...e.m.p.t.y...

I get it.

And I know how afraid you are
[of yourself]
and how afraid you are
of others.
I know you have trust issues and even though
I know the most about you,
I know you don't t

I Love You For ThatTalking to you
is safe and its sweet.
It's innocent and free.
And I love you for that.

Looking at you
gives me shortness of breath.
Makes my heart beat fast.
And I want you for that.

Being near you
makes me nervous and scared
I love your scent and aura.
And I'll always be with you for that.

Hearing your voice
fills my ears with joy
eases my heart and my mind
And I could never leave you for that.

You've destroyed my world
You've rebuilt it though
to somthing more beautiful
and I love you for that.

Will You Marry Me?

I stare into your eyes,
Marveling at what's passed me by.
I can say my heart is tap dancing,
Can you hear what I'm asking?
You're the only one.
My partner and friend,
My only until the end.
I'll confess before everyone.
A casual glance or a wayward feeling,
The happiness I'm experiencing,
Won't be leaving me anytime soon.
I've got you to catch me while I swoon.
Will you marry me?

The Story of Girls and BoysSee that girl?

She made him smile on his worst days,
She stayed up to talk to him every night.
He made mistakes but she forgave him always,
He ignored her - he knew that wasn't right.

He didn't care, took her love for granted;
He expected her to always just be there.
She liked him but she wasn't what he wanted,
He dated other girls, she tried not to care.

Finally, she left, didn't want to wait forever
She found a better guy who liked her too.
This guy saw her potential, he adored her;
His intentions with her were honest and true.

Seeing them together made him realize something:
Without her, he was stuck in a lonely world.
All h

Follow Your Heart"Follow Your Heart"

Sometimes I question if my soul can rest

I always have a strange feeling inside my chest

What is a soul and does it really control

The decisions I make to make me feel whole?

My heart and my mind constantly battle

Each other through struggle as they wiggle and rattle

For freedom from a body messed up and decayed

Which one controls which and the decisions I make?

Which makes me hold a lighter to my face

And burn away today's new wasted space?

Does my heart tell my mind to live and make it through

Or does my mind tell my heart to die and begin anew?

Sometimes it feels like my heart weighs a ton

On certain night

Never Back DownYou stitched my lips today
So I could not speak
I sliced my slender throat
So I could still breathe

Dowsed acid in my eyes
So I could not see
But I reached out to touch her
She in turn touched me

You cut my ears today
I hear no birds sing
Or an infant's laughter
And the joy that brings

You bound my wrists and hands
Now they are red raw
I should blindly stumble
But still I stand tall

You sliced my fingertips
I can't feel her skin
The softness of her hair
The barrel of my pen

You broke my legs in two
Now I cannot walk
Nor can I see or hear
Feel or talk

You did all of these things
To keep me quiet
Yet the passion that

Her First Time"Her First Time"

She said she was scared

He said that he cared

She said to take it slow

He said he always knows

Just what she is thinking

He told her while winking

She smiled feeling safe

She laid there feeling brave

The stories she heard

The myths so absurd

She would never forget

During her moments of sex

But now it was time

In her small bed confined

To find out what its like

To make the final climb

She said she was nervous

He told her his purpose

She felt reassured

His vision was blurred

For he slipped inside

Her warm, moist life

The lights had gone out

She began to shout

And claw his back from pain

Driving him ins

no one warned the little girlssometimes you will fall in love with
the hands or with the jawline, not with
the penis. watch out for boys whose eyes
are rougher than their voices. little girls
love hard and fast, and it is a lie to say
that words will never hurt you.

kissing in the rain is not romantic. it's cold
and wet, and your nipples will be like pebbles
digging into his skin. he'll wipe water from your
lashes, and, if he is polite, he'll pretend
not to notice his thumb blackened by mascara.
later as he sleeps you will watch his lips,
unable to feel anything except your hair
curled damply against your skin.

when you were young, sex was strange
an

i was kissed by color before i was borni have a thing for butterflies -
           they were tattooed across my skin
           when i left my mother's womb.

they rest between my ribs
and the hollow of my throat
i was kissed with colors before i was born.

you were kissed by  h a p p i n e s s
and embraced by Eden -
so you could find refuge
in the color under my skin.

instead of a heart,
my blood beats with butterfly wings.
and they glow when i smile
or when my cheeks forget to blush.
in the place of the heart the butterflies took away.

so your smil

Just A Note To Say...

You're beautiful,

Wonderful,

Incredible,

And I can't believe you're mine.

Bullet1.
2..
3...
4....

I count the dripping
Lines on my arm

1.
2..
3...
4....

Now the pills
Sitting in my hand

1.

Dont forget the bullet
Lonely in my gun

5.....
6......
7.......
8........

Adding a few lines
My picture perfect end

5.....
6......
7.......
8........

Add a few pills
Who said it had to hurt?

1.

Still the lonely
Bullet in my gun

9.........
10.........
11..........
12...........
13............

The lines perfect
Puddle below is growing

9.........
10.........
11..........
12...........
13............

The pills perfect
Thrown into my mouth

1.

Click, boom.
The bullet leaves my gun.

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When I had You

by *DeactivatedAndGone, May 3, 2012, 8:46:08 PM
Literature / Poetry / Family Life / Traditional Fixed Forms

I remember there was a time,
When I thought I had committed a crime.
I remember feeling my mind wonder,
As the first idea of you went through me like thunder.
First all I could feel was a hollow fear,
Then came the first happy tear.
My little baby nestled within me,
I just thought of how it would be.
A warm little someone to love and protect,
This little person I would never regret.
A son or a daughter,
Would be my joy and laughter.
I didn't care if they threw me out,
This child was mine without a doubt.
I would sit awake for hours,
Thinking of the blessed powers.
How wonderful it was to have you!
Being absolutely steadfast and true!
And my love was unconditional,
There was no want for anything additional.
When I told your father,
He wasn't thrilled that I was going to be a mother.
He was scared,
He worried how this was to be shared.
In a rush of emotion,
I threatened to keep you from his devotion.
My little miracle from heaven's beauty,
He was such a calamity.
He wasn't worthy of seeing your face.
He didn't deserve my grace.
But as I was prepared to have my life with you,
My hopes and fears came true.
You were not.
You were merely a thought.
A dream held onto in the cold of night,
To save me from my loneliness and fright.
My little dream,
I wish I had you.
Things were so much easier to do,
When my only thought was of you.
I did not have a single selfish thought,
When I was your mother.
When I had you.

When I had Youby *DeactivatedAndGone

Literature / Poetry / Family Life / Traditional Fixed Forms

Teen pregnancy is a big deal. It's scary and difficult to deal with.

This is an account of my experience, personally, with it. I was 19 at the time and very scared.

Use protection or be abstinent.

Critique by ~StarinaSparda May 4, 2012, 4:57:06 AM

This is simply amazing. The imagery and feeling that you put into this was just overwhelming. I could feel the highs and the horrible low at the end.

It conveyed such a wonderful feeling of warmth in the beginning only to feel the wretched let down but at the same time conveyed a grace and fluidity.

It flowed amazingly and kept me intrigued to keep reading more. I do love how you finished it off and the three lines are just absolutely beautiful.

The impact of this will stay with me all day. I look forward to reading more of your work

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*DeactivatedAndGone Sep 26, 2012 Professional Writer

Much appreciated! It's truly an honor.

If there is anything else you'd like to feature, feel free and let me know as I have way too many poems and you're looking for some literature for your featured journal.

~D3syna Jul 14, 2012 Hobbyist Digital Artist

I admit that your words touch my heart.

*DeactivatedAndGone Jul 14, 2012 Professional Writer

Thank you

~Undecidedddddddddddd May 11, 2012

My hopes and fears came true.
You were not.
You were merely a thought.
A dream held onto in the cold of night,
To save me from my loneliness and fright.

what does that mean?

*DeactivatedAndGone Jul 2, 2012 Professional Writer

I wasn't actually pregnant...just very sick actually

!Jesus-mothic-freak Jun 8, 2012

i was thiking miscarriage...

*DeactivatedAndGone May 11, 2012 Professional Writer

Well...the baby wasn't real...just my mind playing tricks.

~conradkcat May 7, 2012 Hobbyist Traditional Artist

This is gorgeous, simply fantastic. It goes so impossibly high, and then comes crashing down. I really like it, thankyou so much for sharing. It must have taken a lot of bravery to put that down on paper.

*DeactivatedAndGone May 7, 2012 Professional Writer

It did take a lot. But I felt like it needed to be expressed.

I think it's important to actually share the highs and lows of a situation like that so others can avoid it.

Thank you very much for reading.

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